Sassy girl no more?

Several months into this new place, I realized that somehow I've already changed... well, a bit.
The once very clannish me has managed not to be very picky with friends. I only have a few here in Abu Dhabi, so I realized that I need to take all that I can get. I still have my preferences, but that doesn't stop me from getting to know a person anymore. Maybe there's more than meets the eye and I'll discover that we have something in common.

And somehow the sassiness has toned down. My friends back home know that my humor is quite sarcastic. I have been so used to cruel jokes and nasty comments. I even sugarcoat them and refer to them as witty comebacks. I thought it was harmless, and we were just having fun when we do that. That's because I have always been looking from the inside. Yes, I was a mean girl back then. It's just now that I have become an outsider. The new girl. The one not getting the jokes. And sometimes I worry what these people, my "new friends" are saying behind my back. If I learned that they have been saying bad things about me, I would feel really awful.

So now when they are gossiping about some girl, I don't enjoy it that much anymore and try hard not to participate. I guess, somehow I've learned to be more considerate of other people's feelings. Before, I used to think that I was just being "concerned", talking about other people's issues and misfortunes, now I think girls who can only talk about another person's life are just too bored with their own. I find the light on staying out of people's business.

Maybe when I have fully settled down, made more friends and already adjusted to my life here, the old meanie me will resurface. But I hope and pray that it doesn't. I've realized so many things about my character and I don't want to forget the lessons I've learned. I'm not saying that I've turned into a saint all of a sudden, but people here don't know who I used to be, so I can erase my mistakes and try to be the person that I want to be.

And that, my friends, is the beauty of a fresh start. :)